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[Dec. 17th, 2004|06:44 pm] |
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im sorry to have let u down livejournal audience.
but this week has been hell and i really dont wanna remember any of it so im not gonna tell any of u about it.
friday was fun though
all i wanna do is go to cuba.
soon |
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| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! SUnny skies HERE WE COME!!! |
[Dec. 6th, 2004|07:35 pm] |
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OHHHHHHHH MY GOD IM GOING TO CUBA!!! ALL INCLUSIVE 7 DAYS WITH COURT AND TRACEY AND IM GONNA GET DRUNK AND HAVE THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!!
I CANT WAIT TILL MARCH!!
have fun at home here freezing ur asses off while im in fucking cuba WORD G!!!!!
OHHH matty is coming over on friday, ohh party on friday
ohhhh life
im happier today then i have been in MONTHS. MONTHS I SAY MONTHS
I LOVE YOU!!!! |
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|10:05 pm] |
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hey im bored. ive been bored all day, i havent talked to matt in two days, i miss talking to him and im afraid that cuz i pissed him off a little the other night that thatswhy he isnt online butof course that is just me bing me, im so insane sometimes, i would have to make up some insane excuse for him not being online, when iknow hes working this weekend and has exams this week to study for. im so nutty. i just cant wait to give him his gift haha itsz sooo cute
i keep having thiss ame dream. im in this factory like place, its really bright the walls are all white and they are carved with words like love hate sadness, happiness. all emotions. i find this peice of paper on the floor and written in light gray ink is the words "find the door, and find yourself" . so this bare white room suddenly has all these doors. lik eim talking thousands. so i start at the door closest and there is nothing there. i keep going and going so on and so on, and behindeach door i see different ppl but not me. ppl like court and care and bobby and then ppl i dont even knw. but when i dreamed last night matt was there when i opened a door and i just met him. strange? i don tknow. so i finallycome to this door, and its kinda different than the rest, the doorknob is small and silver, when all the rest of them are black and larger. so i open it. and its like this little dark dank room with a chair and a window. i walk in and look out the window and its my house, and everyone is there that i care about, and then i turn around and im standing there, like a mirror image, excpet i have diffferent clothes on. and then i die. the oneim loooking at i mean, the one i was tryingto fnd. my head snaps back and i fall down to the ground. theres a cat in the room and she changesinto a bird and flys to my shoulder. the body on the floor disappears and then the door slams shut and im stuck in that room, looking out at my house andmy fmaily and friends. and the bird starts to sing and then i wake up
ive had it like 4 times.
what does it mean. i mean why would i remember it? i wish i could draw it, cuz the rooms were amazing looking. especially the hallway.
okay i tthink im gonna go watch tv in bed
hopefully ill talk to u tomorrow matty
ill always sing about the stars
~Katey* |
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| city lights and smoggy stars |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|12:35 am] |
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| | the sweet sounds of my daddy snoring | ] |
went shopping with court had a good time lasuging at huge massive mens underpanties cuz were ridiculous like that
ate the grossest thing ever. A&W and it made me wanna barf, then we almost got eaten by this fat woman in the line up who was bitchy and smelled a little like my doggie
BUT we saw the cutest old man with an elf hat onand the salvation army old men were sweet too so we gave them 2.50 and it made our day :)
i bought matty the cutest little gift ever, and i hope he likes it!!! but im not ever gonna tell him what it is
i miss him, cuz i didnt get to talk to him today, hopefully i will get to talk to him tomorrow.. (!!!)
garr dosh im sleepy so im gonna go to beddy bye now
remember, the cheese stands alone |
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| the cheese stands alone, the cheese stands alone |
[Dec. 3rd, 2004|01:50 pm] |
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okay when i was in grade 8 i read this book called i am the cheese about this boy whos crazy and he goes on a bike ride away from his fighting parents or something like that. but really he is just riding around the asylum he lives at, and hes juts made the whole book up in his head and its kinda a good book. anyways he always sings the farmer in teh dell the farmer in the dell hi ho the derry o the farmer in the dell. and the second verse to that is this.
the cheese stands alone, the cheese stands alone, hi ho the derry o the cheese stands alone
and he says i am the cheese, because he stands alone.
well today i am the cheese today and for the rest of my life.
i stand alone
oh tuesday night i was amazed that i could feel socomfortable around someone i didnt know. i cant stop thinking about him and im not sure why. i mean no hes great and he has a wonderful personality. but man no one has ever made an impression on me like that before. i just cant wait like the next time i see him, i just wanna i dont know!!!! i feel like we are together and have been forever. is that creepy? maybe. matty will tell me anyways if it creeped him out. i mean we didnt even hold hands, but man. i feel like we went to the moon and back.
everyone is so cynical.
i was talking to troy young today and he is always happy. like always
and most of the time that annoys the hell out of me, but with troy its like natural and boy is it refreshing. everyone i talked to today had something to complain about and troy had nothing to complain about! i mean i am the most cynical of the cynical people, and i guess my eyes were opened to how much we really take for granted here. there are just ppl that have it alot worse than we do, yet all we can do is bitch about it and ask for more andmore and more. i wanna try to be like troy, a little bit more unselfish and alittle bit more self concious of the way i am behaving. of my real motives. am i trying to make ppl feel sorry for me? or do i really havea reason to complain. heres an example. ur dad beatign you is a reason to complain. my parents have neverlayed so much as a finger on me. so really if ur reading this and some sort of complaint is rising in your mind. is it really worth wasting urs breath on? or is there something much more productive you could be doing?
i strive to be content.
i got my application for SMU today and it depressed me througly. god i dont know, like i hate av and i hate being htere, i hate almost everything about it. but university? eek. i dont know what to think. im not really scared cuz i think im dumb, its just like, man ive been in high school for so long and as ready as i am to leave, its still hard. somany memories, some bad and some really good. i dunnno, im in a funny mood right now. but im happy at least..
im going shopping with courtney tonight after school so i probably wont get to talk to matty till like tomorrow night. aw well i can study for ACS all day tomorrow.
so yeah. thats my entry for the day...
im still wearing your flowers in my hair
~katey* |
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| unmastered rage |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|05:20 pm] |
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okay here we go
first of all iw anna say this to all of u faux protesters out there. if ur gonna tell me u hate george w bush then at least have some good fuckign reasons okay? and not reasons that have been spewed forth by every other fucking reporter and business man and fucking adult youve ever chanced to hear talking about it in an adult conversation that u probably cant keep up with intelligence wise. most of you know nothing more about bush than whats happened over the past 4 years and has been plastered ont he cover of every fucking newspaper and brodcast on the BIASED news stations. please do some fucking research of your own and find out what ur fighting for, what ur really fighting ofr, not what hes fighting for or antiflag is writing a protest song about. grow up. and make ur own opinions. dont steal someone elses just cuz its suddenly hip to hate everything.
and another thing. fuck. off.
i have very little respect for any of you really. hahaha
ohh im so mad right now just for the simple reason that u are all ungrateful stupid little shit heads
the things that realyl pisssed me off today was the x mas tree in the cafeteria getting trashed./ way to go kids that was fucking awesome im so impressed it really makes me laugh. that makesme so fucking mad just grow up jesus christ how ungrateful are you> none of u even deserve to be at that school. shit.
the next person that casually brings up that shit head jeremy in a convo to me other than bob who has business with him to settle is gonna fucking die. I DONT WANT TO TALK OR THINK OR HEAR ABOUT HIM. WHY WOULD I? WHAT WOULD EVER MAKE ANY OF YOU THINK I WOULD? im finally moving on and becoming interested in othe rmore fucking mature bettter ppl and u guys keep bringing up all this shit in the past. leaveme alone
i had the worst day today because i was surrounded my the worst kinda of ppl. MY PEERS.
i really just wish that we could all just grow up and get our heads out of our asses. i just really hate socializing with ppl my own age especially the ppl i know at school excluding a very few, becuase u all have no sense of anything. Nothing there is nothing in ur heads between ur ears. its full of nonsense and im just disgusted.
i really am alot better than some of you.
dont anyone leave bitchy snotty little comments either. becuz i really am. |
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| georgia, the whole day through |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|09:08 pm] |
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Okay, so tomorrow night i am going to see Ray with matty and it should be a fun filled night, hes a really nice person. so far. tomorrow shall tell right?
im all psyched up
oh what am i gonna wear?
ew
im not like that at all
well kinda
im talking to him now about his hatred for essays
so i had a bad day today, i dont feel well at all, i have a fever i swear and my belly is really upset, so i dont think im gonna go to school tomorrow, that is if mom will let me stay home
jeremy had sex with someone like 3 days after we broke up i swear. wha a fucking pig
i actually take pleasure in the fact that he is now miserable and anyone who knows me at all knows thats not what im like. ever.
but he deserves it really.
well im gonna go and maybe go to bed soon
~bye |
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[Nov. 27th, 2004|10:06 pm] |
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"youve got a fast car, is it fast enough that we can fly away? we gotta make a decision leave tonight or live and die this way"
man i cant fucking wait sometimes to be out of school and making my own way through life.. just.. freedom of sorts.. i mean really we will never truley be free.. but one day at least ill have the illusion of freedom.. which is better than nothing right? haha sometimes i get the feeling that im just jumping from person to person. courtney will always be a constant in my life of course, but everyone else i feel like one day im like there best friend then the next day.. we dont even speak in the halls. whats up with that i mean i know its a mutual thing, it takes two to be friends. but.. i dunno.. why am i like that then.. to be unbiased and all. i put on my black rimmed glasses today and felt retarded
"i love u but i hate you, which brings to mind how much i love you, we could ave worked this out ya know in a little room in a little locked room im sorry u hadd to settle for dave. the wonder mansion man, hes filed under cocksucker in my little black book, sweetness can rot your teth, bitter sweet cacophony, but u hold the key u hold they key to my little locked room, your hold the key you hold the key to my little locked whoa oh, please let me out soon, i lah you."
i totally didnt write that
creepy
bandness.. soon, after the 15th im meeting alice, my new friend hes the guitarist and soon im be meeting sam and jade and i already know sandie.
EXCITEMENT!!! alice wrote me a song and i can play it.. its a tid tricky, but im smart
you wear me out
sexy |
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| Why have you forsaken me? |
[Nov. 26th, 2004|11:37 pm] |
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ohhh just got home from tanyas b day party, it was fun, but i was in a super weird mood, like i was happy but i was really sarcastic and kinda mean at the same time. it was freaky. but i feel good now, i had a good time, and im finally feeling over jeremy, i dont really even think about him. hahaha oh i feel so good abou tmyself the past few days, i feel like i could get any guy and i feel like everyone loves me.. but im not sure i want a guy right now.. aw well i will just get to know some people and see how i feel, its hard to say u dont want a boyfriend or girlfriend till u meet someone way amazing and there is no way u cant be with them.. thats the way i felt about jeremy. till i realized he pulled the wool over my eyes and the boy that i first met was none other than a lie. trying to get sex. and succeeded.. :( poor sad me.. haha not. so patrick ferguson showed up to wish tanya a happy b day and we played pool and i beat him but only cuz he was drunk and sunk the 8 ball. cuz i really suck hardcore at pool.. steve kerr showed up too, hes so funny
woot
but he makes me mad sometimes.. not like furious mad, just irked mad.
so im so happy i got my livejournal back, i missed you so my little friend.
im gonna go eat then probably watch tv and sleep on the couch tonight.. i like to do that sometimes im a little lonely way down here in the belly of the beast.. alone
:) tonight ill have to dog to keep me company.
peace |
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| stupid livejournal |
[Nov. 26th, 2004|04:01 pm] |
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it didnt work right last night
but anyways here is my new lj. i have nothing to say this afternoon, exceot im going to a party at tanya's for her birthday, and im having a party next weekend, should be wikkid fun, mine are always the bestest
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| New Livejournal |
[Nov. 25th, 2004|07:39 pm] |
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| | lordy lordy- the distillers | ] |
well this is my new livejouranl, i hate the colors but it wont let me change it right now so i will have to wait till another day..nothing interesting happened today cept i got to hold ashys baby emma, shes a sweetie, it was a pretty boring day though so i have nothing to say but enjoy the livejournal.
www.addictinggames.com
id like another cookie please. |
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